EVERYBODY's GOING HOME...
Yet I'm still around in Shah Alam. I'm not complaining, just pointing out the reason to why many of my friends asked me to help them out with sending them off to the bus station in Section 17. I should be job-hunting... I really should be job-hunting... And today, as I sent off four friends, I got to observe some delightful scenes... Oh boy, you wouldn't believe how pathetic you can look when you're going in different directions with your girlfriend. The whole day, I spent driving around for groceries and sending my friends off. so you can imagine how worn out I am right now.
BUT NONETHELESS...
It feels good to help people out. Especially when you don't ask for anything in return. I feel good, even when I almost locked myself out of my car and left the engine running, because I've discovered that when you pass on good deeds, they come right back at you, whenever you need them. It happened... *Hush*
Anyway, I finished sending off my friends and drove home just now when I heard cricket sounds, which for the next few minutes driving home occupied my train of thoughts.
1. Why am I alone?
I mean, I serve people, help out as much as I can and all expecting nothing from them in return. But here I sit alone and feeling disconnected from my peers. Heck, I never even felt much connection even when I'm with them. What gives?
2. What am I really doing?
I get around everyday to appreciate my own living, but to what end? I know we all have that one goal that we want to achieve, but for me, I think I've passed Self-Actualization already. I'm satisfied with myself. I'm happy with what I'm doing now and I feel no regret whatsoever. With achievement-by-achievement milestones keeping on coming my way, what's next?
3. What's next for me?
I live in the moment, and apparently for the moment, nothing in this world interests me at all. So, what is it that could possibly make me crave for it with full passion?
And so I reached home with practically A LIST of possibilities:
1. TOTAL WORLD DOMINATION?nah~ ditched that years ago.
2. A NEW AND IMPROVED STUDIO? for my multimedia projects~ MEH~ I think I can get by with my current set.
3. A GIRLFRIEND? Let me think... Hmmmm... NOPE. Don't have one, don't need one.
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.
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And I reached home still thinking about it. I turned on the TV and there it was:
TENNIS! That's what's next for me. I've been at it for so long it's as if I married it. So I decided that I'm going to go all the way and make my mark in tennis in Malaysia.
Screw it with being alone, unlike soccer, basketball or any other team events, in tennis, YOU ARE all alone against an opponent. so what if I'm left alone? I've gotten used to it and it gives me freedom to come up with new achievements and entitles me with being prone to making mistakes. And that's how I'll learn tennis even more, with no pressure and burden holding me back from my full potential.
So thank you, crickets-in-my-car-which-I-have-no-idea-how-you-got-there, you made my life mean a lot more before the day came to an end...
Anyway, I finished sending off my friends and drove home just now when I heard cricket sounds, which for the next few minutes driving home occupied my train of thoughts.
1. Why am I alone?
I mean, I serve people, help out as much as I can and all expecting nothing from them in return. But here I sit alone and feeling disconnected from my peers. Heck, I never even felt much connection even when I'm with them. What gives?
2. What am I really doing?
I get around everyday to appreciate my own living, but to what end? I know we all have that one goal that we want to achieve, but for me, I think I've passed Self-Actualization already. I'm satisfied with myself. I'm happy with what I'm doing now and I feel no regret whatsoever. With achievement-by-achievement milestones keeping on coming my way, what's next?
3. What's next for me?
I live in the moment, and apparently for the moment, nothing in this world interests me at all. So, what is it that could possibly make me crave for it with full passion?
And so I reached home with practically A LIST of possibilities:
1. TOTAL WORLD DOMINATION?nah~ ditched that years ago.
2. A NEW AND IMPROVED STUDIO? for my multimedia projects~ MEH~ I think I can get by with my current set.
3. A GIRLFRIEND? Let me think... Hmmmm... NOPE. Don't have one, don't need one.
.
.
.
And I reached home still thinking about it. I turned on the TV and there it was:
TENNIS! That's what's next for me. I've been at it for so long it's as if I married it. So I decided that I'm going to go all the way and make my mark in tennis in Malaysia.
Screw it with being alone, unlike soccer, basketball or any other team events, in tennis, YOU ARE all alone against an opponent. so what if I'm left alone? I've gotten used to it and it gives me freedom to come up with new achievements and entitles me with being prone to making mistakes. And that's how I'll learn tennis even more, with no pressure and burden holding me back from my full potential.
So thank you, crickets-in-my-car-which-I-have-no-idea-how-you-got-there, you made my life mean a lot more before the day came to an end...
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